Posted on Leave a comment

Decide

Decide - Breaking Patterns

If you want to be peace, be peace.

If you want to be happy, be happy.

If you want to be grumpy, be grumpy.

It is as easy as making a decision.

Now you may be asking “How can I be happy? How can I embody peace? What must I do to make myself happy, or embody the peace that I wish to be?”

It is a simple decision.

Deciding.

Decide for yourself that tomorrow you are going to be exuberant. Or decide for yourself that you are going to be a servant to humanity.

Or decide for yourself that tomorrow you are going to be grumpy and unhappy.

Try it! I really mean it: try and make that decision. And to start off with, just so you can really see the amazing effect a decision can have: start off by deciding to be depressed, a complainer, unhappy. And then decide to be the opposite: inspiring, happy, joyful.

Step into the role of the happy or sad person like you would when acting a part on stage. How will you respond? How will you walk? What will you choose to reply to conversations?

But remember, this is what could happen: the minute you make that decision, the Universe will conspire to present you with challenges to test your resolve, to test your decision. The minute you decide to be happy, the Universe is going to give you opportunities to prove that you can be happy despite what happens to you.

It will also challenge your decisions where you have decided to be a servant to humanity: it will present you with opportunities to be a slave to the system. There is a difference between being a servant and being a slave!

So make a decision to be what you wish to embody: be loving, be kind, be human, be nice. It is all a decision.

This blog entry comes from not only my past experiences in general, but also from the fact that I have once again been presented with challenges of my own, these last 3 weeks. I have been challenged in so many aspects of my life: my job, my own business, my friends, people from my past, and even my relationship.

Because I have been falling back into my anger and my aggression.

My willingness to fight the system, to be a battle axe has reared its ugleh head!

When I started my current job over a year ago, I was happy as a clam! I enjoyed every minute of it. Until three months into the job when I was hit by the first challenge! It started to regress from that point onward. I started developing resentments. It is now to the point where I am ready to just throw in my badge, give them five minutes’ notice and walk out of there because I started seeing everything that is wrong with the place. Everything that challenges me, everything that I dislike.

I feel bullied; I feel pushed. I am developing resentments around my colleagues, I am starting to see the negative side of them. But it wasn’t like that when I started – I never noticed it. I just saw in it the opportunity to be a servant to Humanity. And what happened? The Universe gave me the opportunity to be a slave and to be bullied by the big corporation.

Right now I need to decide whether I want to quit and walk away, or whether I’m going to find that peace within me and the laughter and the joy that I have embodied for my colleagues: the bright little sunshine when I started at that job (NOTE: whether or not the people around me see me as all those bright and cheery qualities, is irrelevant. As long as I know I am doing the best that I can with what I’ve been given).

Can I do it? I don’t know.  But I need to decide what I am going to be for my colleagues, for the world around me and most importantly, for myself!

Many times I have told myself: I am a Light and I need to shine. I don’t always see it, but just by opening my mouth and being who I am – the exuberant, flippant, happy-go-lucky person that I can sometimes be – I can bring Light and Joy to those who need it. It might be a shitty work environment, but I bring Light to it. I make fun. I make it fun for everybody and I make it possible for everyone to enjoy at least a part of their day. I want to know that people talk behind my back as the funny one, the entertainer or even the Clown. Knowing that I upset someone’s day, or made them bitter is never a nice feeling so even when I have to tell the truth about someone to their face, I try to find a way of doing it so that they appreciate it and can grow from it.

So, instead of getting into the drag and becoming part of the muck and mire that drags along, I need to step out of it, distance myself from it and decide that I have a light that needs to SHINE! And that light needs to pull everybody through. I have a light that can bring joy to people, and help make their day a little better. And that is what I have decided to do.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *